RedBlueThoughts

 

Three years ago, I wrote a book on religion. Then, I want to know where God was before He created the universe.  I also wanted to know how the proto-universe looked like and what are the philosophical constructs which the early biblical writers wrote or explained about God.

I was successful. I wrote the Book, ” The Holy Way Towards the City of God”. In the next couple of weeks, I’ll share my findings with you. If you believe it, then, support my idea of distributing it for free to other people.

Physicists are racing against time, trying to unlock the Higgs boson or what some call “the God particle”. This particle is believe to bestow mass on other particles. What is so important about unlocking or proving the existence of the Higss boson, it would definitely prove the existence of what physicists call “super symmetry”—the relationship of matter with all the forces of the universe.  If it exists, then, all the existing laws of physics about matters and elementary particles are correct. If it does not exists, then, it indicates that there are other forces and particles at work in the universe not yet imagined or “discovered” by mathematics and physics, paving the way for a totally new set of laws.

“The Higgs boson is interesting because it is the only reasonable explanation we have for the origin of mass,” says Dave Rainwater, a researcher at FermiLab. “Without the Higgs, all fundamental particles would be massless, and the universe would be very different. The weak nuclear forces wouldn’t be weak at all, for instance, so the elemental composition of the cosmos would be radically different, stars would shine differently, and we probably wouldn’t exist.”

“Probably would’nt exist” is a heavy word. I don’t know where he got this idea. Being in existence or not is the realm of philosophy, not of physics. Maybe Rainwater is constructing what he calls philosophical physics (there’s actually a theoretical physics which uses mathematical explanations)

I pose a philsophical question—what if the boson does not exist? Does it prove that there is a God? If there is a God, then, these laws which scientists have discovered already proves him. But, what if the boson does’nt exist? Does it mean that God does not exists or there are other laws and forces at work in the universe which men has’nt been able to unlock?

Marx was right—irrationality proves the existence of God. Since man has not been able to explain some laws, they attribute it to God. But the Higgs boson is not a “god” particle. Yes, it bestows mass to other particles. But, does it prove its godhead? No.

Anyway, its interesting to read other stuff about the Higgs boson. I’ll be writing other stuff about the Boson later on.

Dear Friends, especially Geo,

If something bad happens to me in the future, the murderers are Mr. Soriano Fernandez and his brother, Mario. Mario is allegedly a soldier assigned in Pangasinan. While Mr. Soriano Fernandez lives in Matalava Lingayen Pangasinan. These two people have threatened me with bodily harm before. And this is not gossip. This is the truth. They have said it before and they are determined to kill me once they have a chance.

They hate me because of what I did with Anna Liza Rovillos Fernandez. Yes, this girl is supposed to get married with me. However, circumstances prevented me from doing so. I went to Singapore and just came back some months ago. Indications point that they have something against me. They are plotting my assassination. That’s why I am writing this to protect myself from these people.

Anna Liza also threatened me with death. She’s still texting me a lot of things. She’s still angry with me. And I believe my assassin is just around the corner, waiting for me to let my guard down. Well, I am not afraid of them. Yet, I am doing all precautions to protect myself from these evil people.

They want me to go to Matalava, Lingayen Pangasinan. Well, today, I decided to just call them and talk over the phone.

I got this tarot horoscope: Is this true? 

The Five of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in a crossroads. I am not alone. I intend to let go of despair or nostalgia and I choose to make peace with loss or express mourning in order to move forward. I release the rut of regret and the fear of tomorrow to make way for forgiveness, pleasure, beauty, and hope. I am empowered by my conscience and my gift is forgiveness.

You are quite capable of holding out for something you really want, even if it means delaying your gratification. If there is a reward in the future, you can justify the hard work and the required wait. Don’t let discouragement ruin the whole day. Enjoy what is offered and rest assured that the rest will follow later.

Today, I will try to end my relationship with Anna. Yes, its official. I am ending this 5 month tale. Its a bittersweet one. I don’t want to taste of it anymore. I’ve tried my best. Yet, my best is not enough. I’ve gotten tired of this drama. I’ve stressed myself out completely that sometimes, I don’t know myself anymore. I’ve enslaved myself too much and too hard that it already affected my job.

Today, I will call her parents and tell them my decision. Its a sad yet definitive one. God knows that I’ve tried. But, I can’t take this shit any longer. It has gotten on my nerves already. I came back to rectify. I admitted my previous mistake and would want to really change. But, Anna does not want me to change. They want revenge. And they are just waiting for the right time to strike. Am I foolhardy to believe that they want this? And that they are not savage people? When I visited them sometime ago, I overheard one of the kids kidding Anna’s father that “Richard is here. I thought you’ll gonna kill him.” Anger…err…nay…loathe…that’s the right term…is still there in their hearts. They’ll too proud. They were put to shame four years ago, yes, but its already 2007! My God, these people!

Anyway, if that’s my lot, then, i have to accept it. Today, marks the spot. I will end it. I will definitely end it. Why?

How can I trust somebody who hates me with all her heart? She has’nt forgotten the past and definitely, will not be able to. Will you dare sleep with her in one bed? Will you not think twice eating the food that she prepares for you? Will you even dare step inside the house with her in it? Marriage is about trust. If you can’t entrust your life with the person whom you love, its useless right? Why struggle when you cannot even change their mindsets anymore.

They lust for my blood. They see red. This is a useless and hopeless exercise. Its futile. Nada. Why waste time, resources, effort and all my intellect to think about resolving this? Its unresolvable. Its useless. Nothing to hope for.