RedBlueThoughts

Ihave these feelings of ambivalence over what I’m doing lately. Though we have regular correspondences, I still feel that there’s some betrayal in the air. Anyway, I cannot really write it in full right now because I am still investigating this.

I’m happy today for three reasons. First, since yesterday, she was communicating with me. I don’t know what came over her but she communicated regularly. I think there’s good news or very favorable developments in our concerns. Second, she’s quite okey in terms of communication. She did’nt text me bad things or burst into “hate text” so to speak. Lastly, my company helped me in some concerns of mine. Though they actually told me that they will, the help came quite early. And it was okey.

What I plan to do

I plan to get what’s mine and afterwards, possibly do the right thing–invest it all in a business. I know it sounds crazy but I want my monies to earn astronomical interests. I am looking at investing in time deposits and HSBC is one fine bank to invest my money in. Citibank has products which suit me and I am also looking into it.

I also would want to invest my money in a real venture, something of a low risk, high yield thing.  There are some low risk, high yield products in the market that I can dabble myself into and I am looking into it.

Today, a sunday, she called. She informed me that they are in Manila and they will be back in Pangasinan tomorrow. It was a curious call because she told me that some of the baggages of her cousin were left in the airport. I think that this guy does not have money. If he has, then, he will not have trouble with customs or the immigration department. And she told me that she’s in Malabon. I think she thinks about me. And she really has the desire to meet me or go with me. There’s still hope. Well, if God really intends us to be together, then, He will find a way for us to meet again.

I miss her.

Love Horoscope for the Week of:

Monday, January 29, 2007

 

Richard,

Break your patterns, bend the rules and you can change your relationship game this weekend. Don’t play it safe if you’re looking for love. Romance won’t come when you’re trying to avoid mistakes. Show your feelings, shoot for the moon, and you just might make it.

 

Weekly Overview

Communicative Mercury enters sensitive Pisces on Friday, which can make for a very cozy weekend. Whispering sweet nothings, enjoying music, movies and art or just hanging with someone you care about without saying a word can be totally fulfilling. This is no time for explanations and serious conversations. Minds can merge in quiet companionship, whether lover or friend, to sense a calm connection that makes you feel complete.

Today’s Outlook for

Sunday January 28, 2007

The serious Capricorn Moon reminds us that we gain strength as we overcome the obstacles in our lives. Capricorn’s key planet, Saturn, is opposed today by Mercury the Messenger. A tense atmosphere arises when our thoughts and ideas are stymied. This can be a discouraging day as authority wields its power. The key is to use the resistance we encounter to tighten our thinking and to make our plans for the future more solid.

 

 

I have lost my patience. They say I should wait but this thing is taking damn long. I can’t really wait. Besides, I’m really pissed with her family. They think highly of themselves. What people say about them are all true. Those who have none have tons of pride. They don’t have anything and they are failures. That’s why if there are some of them whose chance of having a good life is there, they disagree.

This girl thinks highly of herself. She thinks that I can’t replace her. Well, in the next few days I will prove to her that she’s wrong. I lost my patience. These people are all shitheads.

This morning, I don’t know but I suddenly had this thought. I questioned myself. Why do I love her?

Do I love her because I don’t have anybody now? No. I can always court someone if I want to, right? Do I love her because she’s sweet and kind to me? No,everyday she sends me rude messages and she’s always angry with me.

Do I love because I’m just bored now and I want some diversion so to speak from the challenges or stresses of life? No, I can always go to bars and enjoy myself to death, right?

Do I love her because of the sex? No, why would i travel 300 kilometers just for this damned sex thing? Am I am idiot? I can always get it from here in Makati.

Do I love her because I get a thrill out of this boring existence? Probably. I love to travel long distances. Maybe its the adventure of going to the provinces, alone, that gets my thrill.

Nah. Seriously,

I love her because I don’t envision myself living without her. I love her because everyday I populate my mind with thoughts about her. I worry about where she is, what’s she’s doing, is she okey. I’m paranoid man, and I just can’t help it.

I love her because I see her in my dreams, in all my plans. I suspend all future plans just for her. I’m supposed to go abroad again but because of this problem and our marriage in suspension, I shelved everything. I’m willing to wait for her.

a-wedding-invitation.pdf

Please click on this link. this is a pdf file which i made for Anna.

If I get married

I will not cheat.

I will be loyal to my wife

and her life complete.
If I get married

I will not lie.

I will always be with her

and take care of her.

Anna, I love you very, very much. I want to be with you.

Yesterday’s jeers and fears can turn into today’s cheers if you play your cards right. First of all, notice that the Moon enters fiery Aries (2:53AM PST) and simultaneously starts a new round through the zodiac. You can be more assertive, dynamic and bold in your forward advances. Take a least one baby or giant leap somewhere in your life. Staying stuck in a rut is not an option. This is not to negate yesterday’s cosmic storms in the form of Venus opposing Saturn and Jupiter squaring Uranus. Both of those sky patterns can still test your resolve on the romantic, business, social, and educational fronts. Therefore, do not be lulled into a false sense of bliss and contentment. Stay on target with key projects and activities. Aries Moon singles you out and may suggest it is better to work on your own rather than in a partnership or group format for the time being. Put investments and insurance policies under the microscope while Vesta in Scorpio squares Saturn in Leo (6:08AM PST). Consider beefing up security and safety measures around your residence or office. Your creative and artistic powers receive a major boost as Venus in Aquarius and Jupiter in Sagittarius reach a highly stimulating quintile pattern of 72 degrees (11:30AM PST). Another feather in your intellectual cap arrives at 3:20PM PST when Pallas and Chiron converge in Aquarius. Healing vibrations are reaching a new peak. Learn more about medical, scientific and technological advances that are inspiring millions of people. Improve your diet with the goal of strengthening your immune system. This can be a great afternoon and evening for ingenious breakthroughs.

Friends, they say, are your wealth. Even if you don’t have money, if you have friends, you’re as wealthy as the Sultan of Brunei or Donald Trump. Of course, it would be better if you both have wealth and friends. For ordinary mortals like me, who, at his early 30’s, will be starting life anew, I only have friends.

When I was a kid, I had this bosom buddy by the name of Vener. Vener is a member of the Iglesia ni Cristo. He used to live in the first kapilya or church of this monolithic organisation which was founded in Punta Sta Ana Manila.